Deze blogger onthult de waarheid achter haar ‘perfecte’ leven op Instagram
Sophie Gray is een blogger en social influencer met bijna 400.000 volgers op Instagram. Door de constante druk om telkens maar iets te moeten posten, kreeg de blogger last van angst- en paniekaanvallen. Ze besloot daarom om de waarheid achter haar picture perfect life te delen.
Haar Instagram, ‘Way of Gray,’ stond altijd vol met foto’s van haar keiharde abs, fruitbowls en fitness quotes. Haar volgers zagen haar dan ook als een voorbeeld: iemand die super gelukkig en gezond is, de ultieme #lifegoals. Ondertussen zag het leven van Sophie Gray er in het echt heel anders uit dan op de foto’s.
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Ze vond het tijd om eerlijker te zijn tegenover haar volgers én zichzelf, en probeert nu het beeld dat ze het perfecte leven leidt, te doorbreken.
I don’t know how to communicate this. I know there is always judgement online, but with this there will be confusion. While @WayofGray is only four years old, today marks the nine year ‘anniversary’ of what this channel is really about. @WayofGray started as a fitness page. If you have scrolled through my feed over the last year, you would have noticed a shift. The shift involves a whole lot of vulnerability, curse words and an obsession around accepting who you are. Within this evolution, I have uncovered who my work through this channel is really for. @WayofGray is for the girl, nine years ago, who touched a blade to her skin her the first time. It’s for the girl who felt as though her pain was out of her control and had to regain it through self harm. It’s for the girl who looked in the mirror and only saw what she thought she lacked. It’s for the girl who didn’t want to exist within her body and her life anymore. It’s for the girl who cried herself to sleep and carved permanent scars into her body. It’s for me. But, @WayofGray is also for you. It’s for you if you have ever, even for a split second, wanted to be someone else. It’s for you if you have ever wanted to be prettier, smarter, or more successful. It’s for you if you have ever just wanted to be less you. It’s for all of us. But, today I wanted to take a second to acknowledge the part of me that experienced that pain. So, thank you, younger @wayofgray. Thank you for having the courage you did. Thank you for choosing to keep on living, even through the pain. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Today I had breakfast, went to the farmers market, had chocolate covered almonds, lunch, and this doughnut. I also plan to work out, go to the dog park and have dinner. To some this may sound like a super average day. And it is – but to me, this is the type of day "the fitness @wayofgray" was having me miss out on. For her, there was always a photo shoot coming up. What if those chocolate covered almonds ruined the photos? What if the workout wasn't tough enough? BREAD?! I know this may sound silly. I may be called vain, or foolish or some other word to belittle my experience. Not understanding this experience doesn't mean it wasn't real for me. You may also think I'm encouraging others to be unhealthy, and that's not it either. I understand that @wayofgray's old images may have been inspiring. And, to that I say there are tons of those accounts you can follow for those images. But, I know those images were damaging for many. While I believe we all must take accountability for our experiences, it doesn't make contributing to others insecurities any easier. But, most importantly, those images made Sophie Gray feel inadequate. Everything I did revolved around those photos. I was constantly worrying about my body image because my "worth" through this channel depended on it. Again, this can make me seem vain. But, I was the one behind the account for 3 years. I saw what images performed better. I saw what people wanted to see – fitter, thinner, more defined, & perfect. This is why @wayofgray is what it is now. This is why I'm here talking about accepting the shit out of yourself. This is why I want you to fucking love yourself. Because, if you always think you have to be something to be enough, you never will be. But, if you can wrap your head around the truth that you are enough exactly as you are, freedom awaits you. Freedom from others judgement. Freedom from your food fears. Freedom from your insecurities. And freedom from needing to be someone or something other than yourself. You, exactly as you are now, are enough. PS.. quiz through my link in my bio to see how you feel about yourself! Plus free gifts! ?❤️
Zo kwam ze tot de conclusie dat veel van haar volgers ook last hebben van die onzekerheden en pressure om perfect te zijn op Instagram. Vandaar dat ze besloot om haar volgers uit te leggen waarom ze eerlijker wilde zijn op Instagram:
“Why? I simply did the math: One in five people live with anxiety. I have 400,000 followers on Instagram alone, which means that approximately 80,000 of my fans are living with anxiety right now — including me. Was my portrayal of a “perfect life” making them feel any better? It was making me feel fucking terrible, so I’m pretty sure that it wasn’t.”
Door haar échte leven te laten zien hoopt ze meer positiviteit te verspreiden:
“I don’t want to compound anyone’s pain and anxiety with my portrayal of a so-called perfect life or body. I want to be a force for positive change.”